Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Don't Watch This!
My friend Amie Putnam sent this to me today and it has so challenged me. I am at a place in my life where realistically, I probably shouldn't add more children to my family. I have four already. We have to share bedrooms. I don't know how they will get a car or how their college education will be paid for. I do know they will be loved and raised in the Lord.
A lot of people tell me that Tyson and I are good people. My answer to that is thank you, but on the inside I think, "if you only know". The Bible tells us the only good that is in us comes from the Lord. So I know I am not good. But lately I wonder if I am "safe". Not really risking anything for the Lord. Not really sacrificing for the Lord. I feel so mediocre. My heart tells me, there is so much more to do. So many more children that don't need a car or a fully paid college tuition, they just need to call me their mommy.
Please pray for me as I try to hear the Lord and as I struggle daily to know what I need to do. Pray for Tyson as he leads our family. In case you can't tell, he is married to one scary woman!!!